In truth, we are okay.
We've all cried more tears than we care to count in the last few days, but for the most part, this whole leukemia thing is becoming like a job to us. We take notes. We ask questions. We answer phone calls and emails (when we can). We talk to doctors. We try to keep other people up to date. We try to keep track of all his meds. All this, while attempting to take care of ourselves and keep the other kids' lives as normal as possible. It's exhausting, but good to be engaged.
One thing we're done with though is researching online. We will still look up a procedure or medicine we want to know about, but we're done with blanket leukemia research. There are way too many depressing statistics and we've gotten to the point, where we simply don't want to talk about stats anymore.
Spencer is Spencer and the treatment will work. Or it won't.
But either way, we have faith that God's hand is ever present in this. And we need look no further for evidence of this, than at Spencer himself.
A week ago today, he was sitting in the cardiologist office, so annoyed that he needed to get a blood test. He probably complained to me a dozen times about how much he hated needles and did not want to get his blood drawn. Now here we are a week later and he's sitting in a hospital bed with a scary diagnosis, feeling kind of lousy, he's been poked and prodded countless times and, yet he is calm, uncomplaining, and filled with faith.
Not discouraged. Not resigned. He is truly at peace.
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27
One thing we're done with though is researching online. We will still look up a procedure or medicine we want to know about, but we're done with blanket leukemia research. There are way too many depressing statistics and we've gotten to the point, where we simply don't want to talk about stats anymore.
Spencer is Spencer and the treatment will work. Or it won't.
But either way, we have faith that God's hand is ever present in this. And we need look no further for evidence of this, than at Spencer himself.
A week ago today, he was sitting in the cardiologist office, so annoyed that he needed to get a blood test. He probably complained to me a dozen times about how much he hated needles and did not want to get his blood drawn. Now here we are a week later and he's sitting in a hospital bed with a scary diagnosis, feeling kind of lousy, he's been poked and prodded countless times and, yet he is calm, uncomplaining, and filled with faith.
Not discouraged. Not resigned. He is truly at peace.
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27
And we feel that same peace.
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Spencer
...received 2 units of blood yesterday and got blood splattered all over him in the process. I'm glad Glen was there when that happened. Ew!
...the blood immediately helped him feel much better and he did some laps around the Hem-Onc unit.
...his blood counts are dropping quickly
Your family is an inspiration. I cannot imagine what you are going through, but you are constantly in our prayers and we know that God loves you.
ReplyDeleteIs it normal for his blood counts to drop quickly during intense chemo? How often is he likely to need blood transfusions?
ReplyDeleteSo admire Spence's faith and courage. How bewildering and confusing this must be for a happy and seemingly healthy 16 year old junior to suddenly be thrust into this almost unimaginable world of needles, doctors and nurses, and hospital life in general.
ReplyDeleteWe love you Spence.
Thanks so much Lara for these daily updates and reminders of faith and hope and love.