Worth of Souls

Earlier on that fateful day in January right before our lives were turned upside down, I had spent some time doing research for an upcoming talk I was giving in church.  The topic of the talk was the "Worth of Souls" and I found my heart particularly touched that morning as I delved into the topic--reading scriptures, listening to music, and studying General Conference talks.

  Lately I've been reflecting at how profound that experience was for me--that God knew then the trial that was about to befall us--and He wanted me to understand that He knew and loved our family and would be there to support us every step of the way.  Although I had no premonition about the hardships that lay ahead, looking back I know that that experience was God's way of spiritually preparing me for this journey. 

I am a child of God,
And he has sent me here,
Has given me an earthly home
With parents kind and dear.
Lead me, guide me, walk beside me,
Help me find the way.
Teach me all that I must do
To live with Him someday.

These are the words to a song that I listened to many times that day it while I researched.  Although it's a song that I've sung to my kids since they were born and my parents had sung to me before that, that particular day I found myself feeling the weight of its message more than I ever had before.   

 I may be flawed and far from perfect, but I am a child of God and just like any loving parent He knows me (and each of us) personally and knows who we are and who we can become.  He will lead, guide, and walk beside us through the thick and the thin of our lives. 

Through our son having leukemia. 

Through Glen losing his job. 

Through the fatigue. 

Through life. 

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"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me."   Psalms 23:4